I have made some posts I'm not altogether happy with, and then deleted them with the intention of condensing them.
The gist of those posts:
-I'm a zoosexual zoophile and, to some extent, a furry. This means, in practice, that I'm sexually attracted to animals and not to other humans.
-I'm a born-again Christian. I believe in God, and I believe Jesus is the Son of God. I love Jesus and I love my family and my Christian friends.
-I'm a virgin and plan to spend my whole life as a virgin because I feel that the consequences attached to bestiality - social, psychological, moral and legal - are unacceptable.
This said, I feel that God accepts, and is not particularly upset by, the fact that I masturbate and view animal/furry porn, as a substitute for doing something worse. He knows what I'm struggling with and understands that I'm pretty messed up - and that the sexual orientation I have is not my fault.
He knows I didn't choose to be zoo, and that I've tried desperately to quit masturbating, and to change or remove my sexual desires, for years now. I prayed about it, prayed for healing. I eventually confessed to him and to myself that I could not overcome this, and was exhausted from trying to, and wept that he did not answer my prayers.
I openly and honestly confessed my weakness to others and others have prayed for me. I am still zoosexual.
I began to realize, eventually, that God had me stuck this way for a reason, and that that reason was simple.
God wanted me to help bridge the gap between zoosexuals and the Christian church.
He wants me to be a light in a dark place. He wants me to tell the zoosexuals that God loves them - regardless of their sin issues - and that God wants to forgive them, help them, and be their friend.
As for Christians, I want them to learn to love zoosexual people. I am a zoosexual and my Christian friends know this, and they accept me as a friend anyway. I want to see the church at large be more like the local church I attend; I want to see, as one witticism has said, "Separation of Church and Hate".
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
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